My Passion vs The Guy

I'm here without any other reasons before

I just choose to join this with my brain,

Because seems like this activity suits me well

More than a year passed,

Everything changed

But at first, 

I'm sure that my passion won't change also

I found a new life

Standing in the front of the school gate every Thursday

Waiting for the welcome of the new person in my life

And that time, 

I'm still the same, innocent..

Day by day passed away

Both me and that new guy, 

Come closer to each others

Joking there, joking here

We laugh everytime the time did right

All changed for the twice

Right now I wonder about my heartbeat

Is it beating because of my passion?

Am I still love doing this thing?

But when I did, but he isn't there, seems like not usual..

So what's the usual thing?

When I do this thing together with him

My heart seems won't beating at all,

My brain stop working,

And my blood seems stop flowing..

Did my passion change also?

The thing that I believe so hard won't ever changed

Does my heart changed?

It choose the guy better than the things I passion in